Raw. Defeated. Willing.
I felt more connected than I ever had in my life,
AWKWARD AS IT WAS. I could relate to the people
in the room sharing their stories.
I sat uncomfortably in a circle
on a cold collapsible metal chair
and for the first time in my life
I felt "a part of".
After many and unexpected withdrawal symptoms,
a lightness came over me. I felt free, and happy and love...
On one occasion, a few months later, in a meeting at a park,
I was told that I wasn't really happy,
that I was just on a *PINK CLOUD.
And soon, they said, I would be miserable like them.
Okay, they didn't say this last part exactly,
but it was the sentiment and the beginning of a
that would later make it on my list.
*And the first thing you know, I was lifted
right out of the AA group, and I floated
higher and higher and even higher, until I
was upon a pink cloud, which is known as
Pink Seven, and I felt miserable again.
Big Book 4th Edition